GREEN MONSTER

Money.

I wish our world doesn’t revolve around money. It is always the cause of every fight and these fights always end up with hurting one another.

Why does money so important?

We cannot live without it.

We will starve without it.

We can’t pay the bills without it.

We cannot travel without it.

We cannot be satisfied without it.

There is a story about a girl who doesn’t care about money but always have a problem about it. She is a 21 year old girl who is now working at a company she believes can make her improve. Her first two jobs were both not related to what she studied in college. She really enjoyed her second job and thought she could stay at it forever though she knows she cannot progress with it. It was a low paying job but she really loved it. A better opportunity (her current job) came for her so she grabbed it. Her latest job wasn’t that high paying but it was way better than her first. She really doesn’t know what she wants in her life. She wanted to be a writer right before she took the entrance exams in college. During college, she put up a business because she originally wanted to be a business woman. Months before she graduated in college, she thought of becoming a copywriter for an advertising agency because she thinks it was cool. After college, she had a camera and fell in love with it so she promised herself to study photography and be a photographer someday. She doesn’t know what she wants to pursue because she had all these dreams on her mind. She also wasn’t sure if she’s that good to really pursue it. She was easily discouraged when something doesn’t go right with her plans and she always think that she will fail. She doesn’t believe in herself. She doesn’t have the courage to stand up and face all the challenges in life. For all she knows she wasn’t that good enough. So, she doesn't care about earning so much money. She just wants to find out where she could be happy and where she’s really good at. But, of course, there are things she wanted like clothes, eating with her friends, and gadgets. And in order to afford all those, she needs to earn money. She’s working now just to pay her credit card bills that she thinks won’t end until she dies. She and her mother always fight because of the unpaid bills and her pauper salary. She doesn’t care if she always skips her meal everyday or pass some invites of her officemates just to save. But doing those aren’t enough. She knows that it’s her fault to purchase that expensive gadget but it was the only thing that keeps her in touch with her first love – writing. Alright, she wasn't that excellent in writing but she tries her best to improve. That gadget was her only outlet when she couldn’t contain her emotions. It was her wonderland where her dreams come true. But that gadget was always the part of the argument because it is too expensive. Sometimes she wishes she was born rich so she wouldn't mind the things she is minding right now. She was the eldest child but the second child was more successful than her. The second child is always the one who’s teaching her lessons about everything. I believe that was one of the reasons why she is inferior. She’s ashamed every time they are being compared for she knows she can’t match what the second child achieved.

She is still contemplating how to pay the bills and how to not starve in the days to come. The loser girl is losing her mind because she and her mother just had a fight last night regarding money for the nth time. She thought that if she could win 50 million in the lottery, she will give 40 million to her parents and hope that it would solve the problem and everybody will live happily ever after.